"I think so often we hide ourselves because we're not "perfect" but God made us so uniquely and I think we can be creative in sharing beauty with one another!"
Katie from Hope Engaged sent a few of us a sweet challenge last week, inquiring if we wanted to be a part of link-up to share the arts and beauty. Part of this request required posting self-portraits. If you know me in real life, I hate being in front of the camera alone. Strongly dislike. Loath. Not a big fan. I rather run a marathon in bare feet. You get the picture?
I was about to respond with a kind email along the lines of, " Thank you so much Katie for reaching out, but my camera is broken as of 2 minutes ago." Or maybe something a little more honest, "Thanks Katie, but there is no way in the world I will ever do this in my whole life. Want me to take YOUR photos, please?"
For most people a little self-portrait is no big deal, but it causes me anxiety. I prefer to be on the other side of the lens, magnifying what is already beautiful in others. And I think this was just the point Katie was trying to make - It is OK to take a moment in life to find the beauty God placed inside each of us.
So after re-reading Katie's email, I asked myself a few questions, "How can I write on addressing fears, if I won't address my own small ones? How can I start sharing messages on authentic beauty next month, when I don't want anyone to see me?" "How can I ask others to be vulnerable and honest, when I won't be?"
So long story longer, I asked my sweet roommate to snap a few photos of me before I had a heart attack. I laid out all these J.Crew approved clothes, only to pull on my old t-shirt, jean shorts and favorite watch. If I am going to have my photo taken, it's gonna have to be the authentic me.
It was a bit awkward at first, I am not gonna lie. I stared at my roommate and asked her, "What do you want me to do?"
She replied, "How do I work your camera?"
After a few camera lessons, the shoot began. I forgot we were taking photos through all the laughs. We actually both got so excited she took a focused photo and I did not look awkward, we both began to cheer and before we knew it a small boy was fist pumping the air and mimicking our words with great joy, "We did it! We did it! We did it!" Game over - the rest of the shoot was just plain fun.
Sorry for the novel, but I wanted to share my small fear with you, in order to encourage you to keep conquering yours, no matter how small they are! More on authentic beauty next month :)
PS. I am happy to report, it ended up not being that bad and I am still alive and breathing. And to your (and my) great surprise, I have a few more photos to share tomorrow ;)
P.P.S. Don't forget to head to Hope Engaged to see more posts and beautiful photos! Thanks for pushing me out of my comfort zone Katie :)
With a grateful heart,
- Live simply - intentionally - gratefully - joyfully -